Saturday, May 27, 2006 @ 12:53 AM
wOohO~ feeling rather shack now, spent the whole day (almost =p) at Pumpfest '06. haha. though i wasn't in the main committee and most of the time was just standing and walking around, looking after the participants in the isolation area, it sure is tiring too! hiaks. well, it is my first time at a bouldering competition, and it is definitely an eye opener. i didn't know that bouldering can be such an exciting event as well. hahah. at least to me. and the best thing is: one of the participants is this little boy who used to be my co junior at dhs, he is now in tjc rock climbing team and he ranked first in the novice men category!! when i watched him climb i was like, woah woAh!! he's good man!! *impressed* haha so proud of him!! =)
As i see those participants' faces brimming with passion when they talked about climbing, it reminded me so much of you. you used to spend hours talking to me about climbing terms and techniques that sounded like Greek to me. spending 4 days a week training out in the sun was just peanuts to you, and you can't seem to have enough of climbing. you were so proud of your tan and you always had to haolian to me that you were finally more tanned than i was. -_-'' perhaps it was a blessing in disguise that you couldn't make it to the school you initially wanted. i had always thought that you would make a good leader, but those teachers in our school didn't even give you a chance. until now i still can't believe that they actually accused you without having any evidence. you know i was so happy for you when i knew your leadership was being recognised in your school. finally things were turning a lil better in your life. but that was also the last healthy year of yours. you simply loved your rock climbing team. you couldn't wait for me to get to know every single one of your committee member. you kept telling me how pretty your vice-chairman was, how zai your secretary or treasurer was, and blah blah blah.. haha. so maybe i looked like i was interested in girls to you? then suddenly, i wondered how it would be if you were there at the competition. haha. i sure would be cheering even louder than those jc girls man~~ and i realized, i have never seen you climb. so many competitions that you went to, i didn't even go for a single one. i can imagine you hanging on the wall, swinging from tile to tile. i want so much to be there supporting you, crying out your name, cheering you on. and i can practically see that spastic smile on your face when you finish a route.
i missed those days when you always called to complain to me about scouts, your rock climbing problems, and the girl you liked. i missed those days when there was someone who remembered to buy gifts for me wherever he went. i missed those days when i received a big heart-shaped cushion on Valentines' Day. i missed those days when we used to hug before each of your operations. i missed those days when we held hands beside your bed until you fell asleep, and I would squeeze yours to comfort you cox i knew you were actually feeling so scared deep inside. but you were always putting on a brave front not to make us worry. i felt so helpless when i saw your health deteriorate day by day, i wished i could be the one lying on the bed instead of you.
it was funny that so many people had mistaken two of us as couple. perhaps it is really hard for others to understand, but i do believe that platonic love exists.
yes, my friend, i love you.
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